Category Archives: FEAR

TAKE A DEEP BREATH . . .

Well, I was feeling pretty confident that I was on the way to complete recovery until today. Now I’ll spend a few sleepless nights waiting for the results of today’s bone marrow biopsy. I knew I wasn’t gaining strength – … Continue reading

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LET THERE BE PEACE (SIMPLE SONGS)

“Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me. Let there be peace on earth, the peace that was meant to be. With God as our father, Brothers all are we. Let me walk with my brother … Continue reading

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GOOD NEWS, AND . . .

The phone rang — the hospital calling. They had called earlier in the day to get feedback as to my relative satisfaction with the care I received during my last stay, so I thought this might be a repeat. It … Continue reading

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THE MONSTER IN HER

My step mother was a beautiful woman with thick wavy black hair and a lovely blue eyes. She was a “knockout.” Nevertheless, she was always trying to make herself more beautiful, more desirable using all the latest tricks from the … Continue reading

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DREAMS – CHANGES AND INTERPRETATIONS

Recently my dreams have taken a new direction and last night I lay awake for a while thinking about how different they are since my illness was diagnosed. It is interesting to consider . . . If I go back … Continue reading

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Empty Room – Empty Life?

Cloudy skies but no rain. An empty room. That is, empty except for me. And my laptop. And my cell phone. And my knitting bag. But empty nevertheless. No visitors today, but that’s okay. It’s quiet and I don’t feel … Continue reading

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I AM NOT PAUL . . .

“I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.” (Phil. 4:12-13) Paul was an … Continue reading

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